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1/5/2022 0 Comments Personal Road Map Course, "Getting to Know Thyself, Better" (Lesson 9: How to PASS your test; Karmic Debt, includes FREE PDF)During every incarnation we live through, we accumulate *good* Karma points and *bad* Karma points. *Note: in Numerology, as far as I know, no one really refers to "Karma Points" because (I think) they don't want to infer that there is some Grand Point Keeper and system. But, since I am no Numerologist, I have no qualms about using the analogy. Moving on... So... The "good" Karma Points are best described as Passing Grades in school; you learned and showed competency in your subject so you pass and move on to either build that skill further or onto the next subject. The "bad" Karma Points however, are... you guessed it, Failing Grades. This means that in your previous incarnations you did not "Pass" this "test". Think of it this way- this whole series I've been trying to put each aspect of your numerology reading into the perspective of a Road Map, right? Well, Karmic Debt is the equivalent of a Driver's Test. Only thing is is that the test subject matter can stay the same for multiple incarnations OR it can change as needed. Like having to take your Driver's test each time you'd have to renew your Driver's License. Which, btw, would suck. And yes, having Karmic Debt can suck. Especially when you consider that some people you know right now might not even have it; this lifetime. Which is great for them and doesn't affect you. Unless you too, have none, which in that case, if after you review your core numbers you find you don't have Karmic Debt... congratulations! This lesson is NOT for you! But... I DO suggest you revisit the lesson from everything we've done previous that was the hardest for you to work through and give it a second look. Or, just review all the lessons up to this point and do some additional meditation/introspection. If however, you DO have Karmic Debt, that's OKAY. And knowing is half the battle. The easy half, but, half none-the-less. So, how do you know if you have Karmic Debt? Look at you Core Numbers (Life Path, Expression, Heart's Desire/Soul's Urge, Personality, and Birth Day). If there is, in the last step before breaking down your calculations to a SINGLE DIGIT, the number 13, 14, 16, or 19, then you my love, have a Karmic Debt to pay and/or a lesson/skill to learn or to master... something that you might've been struggling with (even unknowingly) for quite some time. OR, on a lighter note, maybe it's something you HAVEN'T yet attempted to learn/master... like moving on to highschool and taking a subject you haven't yet tried out. Now, here is where I get excited about something that as far as I can see (via google search) there isn't a lot of hype/importance placed on... I get this excited because MY OWN Karmic Debt number (13) has #1 always been one of my 3 favorite numbers (7 and 10 being my other two, because I was born 10-7), and #2 because it explains LITERALLY EVERYTHING. If you've read my blog posts from when I first started my website, where I talked about all the shit I was doing and how many people I was taking care of/helping, and how I was successfully "doing it all", more and more until it all fell apart... then what happened, and how it happened... well, it ALL MAKES SENSE. I'm a Libra (in case you didn't know) and my pendulum has always erratically swung from one extreme to the other. I had to work ridiculously hard to get my shit together and under control. When I did, I had to work just as hard to keep it together. Then, the car accident and 1st concussion. Then, less than two years later, my ram gave me a second concussion. I hated (and still kinda do) the effects this brain damage had on me, my family, my life, and most importantly... my spirit & sense of self. But I NEVER ONCE believed there wasn't a greater reason behind my pain & suffering. I finally listened, and I slowed down. Mostly because I had to; my depression and physical pain was/is crippling. My pendulum was swinging out of control once again like when I was a young teenager and I could control NOTHING. I couldn't even make sense of anything anymore. I found myself giving into the pain and despair I'd managed to keep away for nearly 40 years, and became lethargic to the point of slovenliness. I went from doing it all/doing too much, to not caring a single bit and doing nothing at all. Then I didn't even know where to begin when I "woke up" and realized I wouldn't just die because I wanted to, so living it was, and I had to do something. I tell this (shortened) story because I want to include a few clips from the description of the Karmic Debt #13 from the worldnumerology website that I feel, explains it all (for my situation). Excerpt from worldnumerolgy.com on Karmic Debt #13: *Very often, people with a 13 Karmic Debt don’t concentrate their energies in a specific direction or on a single task, but scatter their attention over many projects, none of which amount to much. *Some with the 13 Karmic Debt fall to laziness and negativity. But efforts are not futile, and success is well within reach - one simply must work hard and persevere to reach the goal. *Keep your environment neat and under control, and never procrastinate. I've always been told to FOCUS. And shit, just LOOK at this website. Obviously, I've NEVER focused on just ONE THING. I started a company (in name only) called "Jill of all Trades" back in the early 2000s. I grew up loving Whitney Houston's version of "I'm Every Woman", it bacame my inner theme song... Like, hello? OF COURSE this is my Karmic Debt Number?? And OF COURSE, when I felt I was at the top of my game (so I thought) it would all fall apart in such a spectacularly, fiery, way. And of course, this lesson- the last one I intended to include for the Numerology part of this course (originally, but I decided I'll go to the end, instead- like 5 more lessons, I think), would take me SO LONG TO FINISH & put out??? And the funny thing is... I read this before and knew my Karmic Debt Number, years ago, before I ever decided to start putiing this course together. But it has taken me this long to REALLY hear what's being said to me, by me, over my many lifetimes. Even now as I write this, my desk and calendar and house are cluttered with projects, etc. that I've been sorting through--- trying to figure out what's important/ what I should keep... Like, I'M STILL DOING TOO MUCH!?! I've shaved down my list of things I want to do in all aspects of my life, to what-I-feel is a more manageable task list... but, realistically... it's STILL TOO MUCH. And I don't know how to change this other than to just focus on one thing at a time as time and attention allow. That is the best I've learned (so far) to do, I still have a huge list that includes blogging, podcasting, writing, YouTubing, farming, exercising, etc., but I've focused in on how to prioritize and schedule accordingly, so I'm not overwhelmed. And I've been working on allowing myself to see longer term goals. For example, I have a product I've wanted to launch since 2018, I think (maybe 2019?), but since I'm a one-woman-show, I've had some setbacks. But, if I just do smaller tasks and focus on a goal a year or two down the road, then I might ACTUALLY be able to do it... Unlike what I've done numerous times each year since deciding I wanted to do the thing in the 1st place, which was me frantically trying to accomplish product making, marketing, filming, editing, patenting, etc. all in a few months' time... failing... and then giving up... Rinse, Repeat. So what makes me think I can help you with YOUR Karmic Debt, if I'm still struggling with mine? I CAN'T. That's a YOU problem. But, I can give you what might be a tool for you to use, based off of what I've been learning. But I must say... That I truly feel that until YOU reach your GRAND BREAKING POINT--- you might not be able to FULLY receive the information needed to "pass your test" & ultimately rid yourself of your Karmic Debt. Let's hope I'm wrong. For this lesson, you'll start first with this link: worldnumerology.com And I've also found this link to be helpful: sunsigns.org Get your FREE PDF for this lesson, below.
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12/2/2020 0 Comments Personal Road Map Course, "Getting to Know Thyself, Better" (Lesson 8: Your LIFE COURSE SYLLABUS; Karmic Lessons, includes FREE PDF)Wouldn't it be just great if the Universe (or your Creator... whatever you prefer) would just TELL you completely straightforward-like, what you REALLY NEEDED to KNOW? Like alerts we get on our phones now whenever our normal routes are flooded with heavy traffic, or there's construction, etc. Like the alarm bells that go off in our gut when we sense danger... Well, WHAT LUCK! (Most) of us have actually been given just that,,, a straight forward heads up about what we need to be on the look out for. And the way this translates to us through Numerology is through the Karmic Lessons; and they show the individual what they are most "weak" in. Some of us may have no Karmic Lessons... which, isn't necessarily good or bad; whereas some of us will have many... it all just depends. AND FYI... Missing Karmic Lessons does absolve someone of other challenges and weaknesses... those (challenges & weaknesses) just show up in other places within your chart. From worldnumerolgy.com~ HERE ARE SOME FACTS ABOUT KARMIC LESSONS Fact #1: Karmic Lessons help to give direction to your life (this will become clear later). Fact #2: While Karmic Lessons point to something "lacking," they actually "add" to your life a desire to fill the missing parts - hence my earlier statement that they are like vacuums, and nature (that's you) abhors a vacuum. So... what IS a Karmic Lesson? Well, do you believe in past lives/ an afterlife/ or Reincarnation? It would help if you do. But, regardless, Karmic Lessons are exaclty what they sound like: Lessons brought about by a Karmic wheel/cycle, that we have yet to master. And it is THIS lifetime, THIS moment, that we are given THIS course of study. Think of your Karmic Lesson(s) as your Course Syllabus for school; you're not only finding out WHAT you need to learn, but (unlike regular school) the teacher is giving you the test answers AND an actual reason as to WHY you'd want to learn the lesson in the first place, by AWAKENING that desire deep within you. How's that for an education, amirite? ****For an absolutely in depth understanding of Karmic Lessons, I HIGHLY suggest you head over to worldnumerolgy and learn from the master, Hanz Decoz, himself, by reading both Parts One and Two. The Lesson that follows is set up AS a SYLLABUS. I thought it would be of bit fun to outline these "Lessons" that way. You will only need this link which is the first page of Karmic Lessons from worldnumerolgy.com. You'll find your "Lessons" starting about halfway down the page. As always, if you have any questions, please, feel free to contact me! Love you. Be good to yourselves and be safe.
9/1/2020 0 Comments Personal Road Map Course, "Getting to Know Thyself, Better" (Lesson 7: How to Handle MAJOR Conflict; Balance Number, includes FREE PDF)BALANCE NUMBERJust in time for the Season of Libra and the Autumn Equinox... (Actual Post Date of 9/22/20 at 7:01PM PST... Forgot to change the date before posting!) From worldnumerology.com: "The influence of the Balance Number flutuates depending on how "balanced" you are." uh-huh... yeah... what else? From the same site: "Usually, the Balance Number is more or less dormant. But it comes to the foreground and its influence becomes significantly stronger when you go through emotional turmoil, the Balance Number becomes important." IMO, that could've been worded a bit better, but hey, I didn't write it AND I'm NOT the expert... Um, plus I've kinda been MIA for more than a year and the world is currently falling apart at the seems... so who am I to judge? Yeah... so, looking at where I'm at right now; 40, broken, dead inside, learning to live and give AF again after some major dying/rebirth events recently that pretty much rounded out the end of the last decade- quite nicely (yeah, not really), I'd HAVE TO SAY- this description of a Balance Number (BN) TOTALLY MAKES SENSE... now. I'd thought it did when I first started writing/making this course, but now... the message of my Balance Number (9, btw) is CRYSTAL CLEAR, and I really have to say that I'm kinda really happy with how THIS number (Balance Number) is the Lesson I am starting this course back up on. I am after all, a Libra, so balance is sort of my thing... Does this mean I'm going to live to be 80, & 40 (when this 'rebirthing' thing came to a head) is my midpoint? Maybe? Who knows? However, upon further reading and finding out what my personal Balance Number of 9 means--- I'd have to say that I reached THAT point in my life, a while back, and BECAME THAT NUMBER. Now what, am I supposed to go back to the OLD ME? Or, maybe... maybe that's the PART of ME I NEEDED to KEEP? Yes, I believe that's it... After all that I've been through; the dying inside and self-loathing over the last few years, ultimately... I am who I am. And when I first started blogging & doing this website in 2016, I was aloof & introverted. I thought I was arrogant & self-centered, every time I gave myself praise... because society doesn't like (didn't like) when you do that. And the very last line of my description paragraph for my number, is where I finally had my epiphany, "You will receive from giving to others," and well, shit... THAT'S EXACTLY WHO I AM and WHO I'VE BEEN- forever. I've just really felt during the process of soul-dying & re-awakening, that I have nothing left to give. Yet... I've NEVER stopped giving... EVER. My methods changed and my boundaries have become far more defined as I've gone through all of this, but at my core--- I'm still that selfless giver. I'm just not a MARTYR anymore. That part of me is dead and gone. Because of this lesson right here, as I write these words... I KNOW this to be true (8:04 pm PST 8/28/20) May YOU, too, find your true self and rejoice. Okay... enough heavy shit. Let's get back to the lesson... So, for most of this lesson, we will be using a different site, called "sunsigns.org" From their website, a further description of the Balance Number (BN): "What Is Balance Number In Numerology?Different people react differently to the challenges they face in life. Some people have the habit of withdrawing from difficult situations to think about the problems thoroughly; others withdraw from their emotions, to escape from feeling anything. Some people explode with emotions, but allow the explosion to pass quickly. Others linger with their feelings, thinking about them internally. You need to show more maturity and self-development to learn new and more effective methods of handling the world and the problems we confront. In this context, your Balance Number guides you on how best to deal with difficult or threatening situations. This numerology number tells you about the difficult times you would face in your life. You also know about the best way to use your abilities to face the various challenges in life and how to handle the difficult times." Great. Now here's some instructions for the attached PDF for this lesson... For the first part of Lesson #7, you will use the sunsigns website and as a warm-up to get back into this course, you will start by copying down & changing each sentence within your specific Balance Number description, into "I am" type statements; marking if you agree or disagree with each one. Again, this is just a warm-up. **Perhaps because of where I've recently been on my own mental & spiritual journey, I have this new perspective of the BN that honestly, I'm not so sure I would've been able to "teach" nearly as adequately last year, prior to my complete collapse into abject darkness. Just saying... Oh, and did I mention? This lesson will also feature a crossover lesson into ShadowWork, completely BECAUSE of my own journey through the darkside. LINKS & PDF Anyway, there are instructions on each page within the lesson for each part. You will need these following links... First Link, sunsigns.org Numbers 1-4 Second Link, sunsigns.org Numbers 5-9 Third Link, worldnumerology.com Meaning of Single Digit Numbers Other links mentioned... ShadowWork Lesson #1 Bonus Lesson, Labels Below is the PDF for this lesson
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I'm also on Twitter, like, ALL the time, lol. More than any other platform really. So by all means, holler at me over there. Both links can be found at the top of this blog post. Lastly... I do apologize for the long gap between lessons. As of this moment, I see just two more lessons for Numerology, for now; Karmic Debt and Karmic Lessons, before moving on, temporarily/for awile, to Astrology. I am feeling a bit better as far as being up for these lessons... so-to-speak. So here's hoping I can pull that off. All my smiles and love to you my darling friends. Be kind. |
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