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I've tried a few times over the last YEAR to update, blog, get back to blogging/teaching, etc... and I have failed miserably, each time. There was a time when I knew myself. And it's not that I'm sitting here NOT knowing who I am; instead, I'm just not liking this new, broken version of me. Like, at all. Does this mean I can't teach you how to find yourself? No. Of course I still can. Just don't expect it to be a pleasant journey along the way. The more truth you are exposed to, the less recognizable your life becomes. I feel at this point I want to write my masterpiece and call it, "How to give a shit when you don't, by hoping one day you actually will." I'll let you know how that pans out, okay? Lol? Anyway... I just thought that I'd say "hey!" and "I'm still alive (whatever that means?)" and also... I was reading through my notes the other day for the PRMseries and I swear, I don't even know who the hell wrote it? I mean, I KNOW I DID, but unfortunately... and just fyi, I'm bawling like a fucking baby as I type this right now... I've just lost so much of myself over the last decade, and the majority of it went real quickly the whole year of 2019.... So. I WANT to finish this series, at least the Numerology portion which by my calculations has at least 3 MAIN lessons left before we can move on, but... I don't know that I have it in me anymore. Some days, I can barely get up to feed/water my farm animals. My body is trying to kill me from the inside out. My endometriosis has spread up passed my diaphram up around my heart & lungs and into my arm muscle/tissue. And some days, I swear it's already in my brain. This physical pain, combined with a mental and spiritual break and a second concussion last year plus so much other bullshit has left me feeling helpless and unmotivated. But hey... I have been on Twitter, even if I've been nowhere else for a while, I've posted some YouTube videos, I've updated my merch, and I've never left Pinterest, although I'm hardly ever on FB or Instagram, and I started reviewing books again... So I haven't competely given up, I guess? Anyway... this was really just to say hey and hope everyone is doing alright/as best as they can. Love you.
6/7/2019 2 Comments
When all HOPE is lost
When all hope is lost, people die. well, the physical body dies; but the spirit & energy that was that person goes on... never to hold this Earthly form, ever again. When you allow yourself to believe there is nothing left, no hope of them coming back... then there is NOTHING left. When your own energy is given to accept those thoughts of despair and hopelessness, instead of entertaining the possibility that just maybe, there's still a chance... then the inevitable DOES happen, and your loved one dies.
I have been fortunate to have seen some amazing comebacks in my life. I have witnessed the miracle of human tenacity and perseverance. I have seen firsthand, and experienced it- personally, the impossible become a reality. I feel so sorry for those who haven't.
My experiences have allowed me to assist in channeling my energy to others for the express purpose of making "miracles". But my efforts can only go so far. If those I assist fail to believe, then all IS lost. I can do no more. To do so would be harmful to my OWN health and stability, a sacrifice I am no longer willing to make, as I have finally learned that it would just be in vain, anyway.
I try to educate those around me to understand that the human body is a vessel of insurmountable energy. The abilities of the human brain are still so far underestimated and not understood by the common man. This is a tragedy.
When caring for a "dying" person, there is a rule one should follow... it consists of a few "ance/ence" words plus the most important ingredient, TIME. In some cases, like cancer found too late, time is not a commodity these people have. But in cases where the person is relatively stable, even if artificially/medically assisted, then TIME becomes the key ingredient.
With TIME, wounds can and WILL heal. It is an absolute truth. And the healing CAN & WILL happen, without medical intervention, provided the patient is given that TIME to heal. The question, however, is how long are you or the person in charge of making the decisions, willing to wait for those wounds to heal? If your answer is less than 48 hours, then consider yourself a human incapable of & not suited for deciding the fate of someone else. Period.
Trauma affects everyone a little bit differently. For the victim/patient/dying person, if allowed to rest for DAMNIT, AT LEAST 48 hours... the results would be REMARKABLE and nothing short of a MIRACLE. But it would ALL be just general SCIENCE. On the grand scale of everything, sometimes just waiting and observing can provide all the proof necessary to make a difference... a difference between life and death.
I said TIME was a main ingredient plus some ance/ence words... here's what those words are...
PATIENCE... You have to have enough patience to wait it out and to wait for them. They've been through some shit. They need to rest. They need time to heal. Do you have enough Patience to wait?
ENDURANCE... Each person's amount of time necessary to heal is going to vary. There is no way to predict how long it'll take before a substantial and measurable difference is noticed. It could be 24 hrs, it could be a week. If there is any remote sign that they are still in there, ask yourself... how much of your own energy and life force are you willing to contribute to their fight?
IGNORANCE... Oh, I can see this being misconstrued already. Perhaps I should say, BLIND IGNORANCE? Or maybe I'm just using IGNORANCE as a verb instead, like saying it as an act of ignor-ance of the facts and figures that the doctors provide about how unwell your loved one is doing. Like, if they say it's pointless, but you're still within a 24 to 48 hour period, ignore what they say will eventually happen. You DO NOT HAVE TO ACCEPT "NO" for an answer. You will know when they are ready to go.
VIGILANCE... You have to stay on top of it. Ask the questions, ask all the questions. Ask from doctors, nurses, online forums. Find out what to expect. Speak to your incapacitated loved one, tell them what's going on. Let them know you're there and what you have found out & what's necessary/going on on the outside so they can focus on healing on the inside. Numbers/stats are going to fluctuate. It'll get bad before it gets better. You may want to quit. But are they ready to quit? Or are they still responding in even the mildest form? Do not believe that it's all just bodily functions that are going haywire. Hospitals are objective, your loved one is a number, a bed chart... nothing more. Who is this person in the bed, to you?
BALANCE... In order to have endurance and patience and ignorance, you need to have BALANCE... which requires you taking care of not only your loved one, but yourself, as well. If you're tired, you will make wrong decisions, you're judgement will be clouded, mistakes will be made. If your loved one is incapable of speaking for themselves and you find yourself in the position to make decisions for them, you do them an injustice by deciding shit when you're exhausted. If they have been stable for more than 12 hours, go take a nap... eat something... shower... revive yourself. The act of encouraging someone to reinhabit their body is an all out WAR. It's a war of wills. If you know for even a moment that that hand squeeze or eyebrow scrunch was more than a reflex, then fuck everything anyone tells you, doctors included, and fight. Encourage them to fight. I'm not saying weeks and months and years, I'm only suggesting a time frame of more than 24 hrs... 72, preferably. I understand everyone has a life outside of the hospital. I understand not everyone has the heart of a soldier/warrior... I'm just asking, what is this person's life worth? To you? To their kids? To humanity?
CONFIDENCE... I don't care what God you believe in, if you believe in one or not... My beliefs- ONLY, dictate the severity of my efforts. I believe in the energy of positivity and encouragement. I KNOW that energy can be transferred. Whether through prayer to a God from a congregation that your loved one is a part of, or by you alone holding your loved one's hand as they walk through their own Valleys of shadows and death... the power behind confidently fighting with them will heal.
ACCEPTANCE... There may come a time when no matter your best efforts, your loved one is ready to go. When they start failing, when they're no longer responding, when every option has been exhausted... you will have to accept that the fight is over. To be clear, if said person is stable, vitals are stable- regardless if it's because of a machine or not; if it HAS NOT BEEN AT LEAST 48 HOURS, then there's nothing to accept- yet. BUT, if their bodies begin to fail regardless of the machines keeping them alive/ prayers offered/ or your best efforts, then and ONLY THEN is when you can ACCEPT that they are ready to move on, and you can let go.
I'm not suggesting that you wait a week, or two months, or two years... that is besides the emotional pain to carry, an incredibly large financial burden, that I cannot rightfully suggest or demand you take on. All I'm asking for, for your loved one- on behalf of your loved one- is give them some time. 72 hours, tops. See if they are making any progress. Have they remained stable, even if on the machines? Are they maybe breathing with assistance but are pumping their blood with their own heart? Are they making facial expressions and eye movements and hand squeezes in "response" to you or another's presence?
The doctors & nurses are going to tell you that those are just natural body reflexes... especially if there is brain damage... but is it? Is it REALLY just the body twitching? I want you to think for a moment, about any person with a cerebral disease you may have seen/met, or a blind and/or deaf person, or a newborn baby... I can tell you now... if what you are witnessing in front of you looks like any of those people/examples I just used... then you really might want to reconsider the idea that their body is just spazing out.
That open-eyed stare where they are staring into space, but scrunch their eyebrows and "focus" on something you don't see... according to doctors- that's just a bodily reflex if that person is "brain dead", but is that what it is called if the person is someone with a severe case of Cerebral Palsy? And what are the facial expressions/eye focusings & wanderings called if the person is blind or deaf? And when a newborn tries to focus, or grasps your hand, or smiles- these are all just reflexes/instincts/ and gas- right?
That's all I'm trying to say. If those "reflexes" are not present, and it's been 72 hours, and/or their bodies are NO LONGER stable via every type of machine and/or drug intervention... then, you can accept that it is time to let go.
NOT. UNTIL. THEN!!!
Why? Why would I suggest something like that? What makes me think I can even remotely suggest to not listen to what the doctors are saying? Okay, first of all--- the doctors/hospital are getting paid, regardless. The longer your loved one stays, the more money they get. And also, I'll repeat: Hospitals are supposed to be objective, your loved one is a number, a bed chart... nothing more. Hospitals are not in the business of selling "Hope".
Second, I want you to consider this... The body is a crazy thing. "LOWER" lifeforms can regenerate, and I know that we can too. Think of Starfish & Worms cut in half becoming two new individual starfish/worms, and Lizards with their tails breaking off, just to regrow again... And in Humans, we have many examples of regeneration happening, like when we break bones... the bones will regenerate. And hell, the best examples are of fetuses/ in vitro... when we're in the womb, we are connected to all of that primordial cosmic energy and DNA. That's why this "theory" isn't JUST for people who have a loved one in the hospital... it's also for pregnant moms out there who are being told their baby might not make it. I am very much Pro-choice, but, I would NEVER suggest someone terminate a pregnancy (or keep it) based on MY beliefs... Another great example of the power of Human Will & Determination is EVERY SINGLE PERSON that has EVER sustained a brain injury (including myself, although mine was mild compared to millions of other people's) and has regained all that they had lost; whether it was loss of speech, or motor functions, or everything and anything in between... Think of people who have been "asleep", "brain dead", & in comas for years, but then came out of them...
My point is... that it took something huge & magnificent to get your loved one to where they are near death. Maybe it was an accident they were in, or a disease they are battling, or maybe it was a long addiction to drugs &/or alcohol... Whatever led them to where they are, they deserve a chance & some TIME to fight through it, from the inside, AND some time to REST. Think about it; when you're beyond exhausted... what do you want most? I know I've gotten to the point, mentally, emotionally, spiritually & physically, where I felt that I could and wanted to LITERALLY sleep for a week, or at least a few days: just knock me out for a bit, will ya, please?
Well, that's what severe trauma can do to a person. Everything can shut down, and if given the chance... it can reboot; yeah- just like a vacuum or a computer that has overheated, same thing. You just gotta give them some time to see if they're in there and if they're willing to come back. Life is already hard as it is, and some people don't even want to keep going when they are perfectly well & alive... so, yeah.
Anyway, that was my musing on this subject. I want to leave you with two separate quotes of mine that I'd offered to a friend recently...
"Don't be scared. A 1% chance of anything has moved mountains."
"Having courage against the greatest of odds is our hardest obstacle in life."
These are some truths that I know, that are finally able to be expressed in an (almost) coherent & cohesive fashion...
This is more of me musing through the things I have learned & have been shown...
The atoms that make up our physical bodies are born of the materials that make-up the stars, our universe, every universe. When our bodies die, that atomic energy that was us- returns to its source and becomes something else, entirely. Bits of what was once a star, dead now, billions of light years away, has become a part of us. And in turn, bits of what were our bodies- will become a part of a future living body- many bodies, to be precise. Our physical forms will decay and break down, becoming part of the Earth, itself.
The energy that animated our bodies, the electrical current we held within- will be released into the Ether. When lightning strikes- we will be a part of that. When a radio is turned on and the song playing is sung along to, we will also be a part of that. Energy CANNOT be destroyed. It is a fundamental Law of Nature. In the same way that the amount of water on Earth is the same amount there has always been, just in various forms, so too, is the energy that makes up us, as well as all of the cosmos.
But what of our souls?
What of our consciousness?
Is not our soul what animates our bodies?
When we kill another living thing, are we NOT destroying it forever?
No. We are a part of that flower, that tree, that small puppy, that unborn child; in physical form, only. Our souls are separate from our bodies. Our bodies have an expiration date. Our bodies can easily be destroyed. Our souls- cannot. Our souls ARE consciousness. There is NOT a scientific explanation known to man that can accurately explain this duality. Instead, you’d have to look to a field of Fantasy, Science Fiction, or any kind of Imagination, to get close to an analogy that works.
If you can imagine a vessel, a one person pod that you can inhabit- THAT is our body. The person inside, is our soul. The soul is infinite. Every Ancient religion has preached the same message; "God" made us in His own image, "God" is inside of us, "God" is everlasting…
Therein lies the simple & logical answer. To follow any variation of this message that allows, excuse me, that FORCES or encourages you to believe that death is the end & something to fear- is an insult to the magnificence that is, us.
As humans, we have been privileged to be able to explore this and many trillions of other concepts, as we will continue to do for as long as we, the species, exist.
Reincarnation is NOT a myth. It is a FACT. Collective Consciousness is an actual phenomenon that cannot be proven, but is obvious in every living thing. The memories of learned behaviors are stored in our DNA that our future descendants can easily tap into. So at the moment of birth, we are already given an unimaginable amount of data & materials needed to survive, to work with.
All our bodies need to get going, is the spark. In the womb, we are a smoldering fire- an engine waiting to be started. At the precise moment of birth (and yes, I know this is debatable, & I’ll give you my take on that in a minute), to the exact minute/second, our bodies are waiting for the spark to start the fire- the key to fire-up the engine. That spark, that key, is the soul. And when we die, the key is removed, the flame is put out.
But, here’s where it gets interesting… There are billions of different key configurations that exist; so many that you couldn’t just take a random key and open any random lock; but, there are still only “x” amount of key configurations. For this argument by the way, I’m speaking of just one hypothetical key that is made for one hypothetical type of vehicle/engine. There are as many car manufacturers with all of their many different years/models, as there are different nationalities & genders of humans, so to keep it simple- let’s assume there has only ever been one kind of vehicle- ever made. That vehicle represents us, humans, in human form; our physical body. And every year that there are new vehicles made, that number represents the humans born, every year.
*And as far as the other key/lock combos… don’t even go there for right now… those represent all of the OTHER SPECIES, et al.
Back to the example… So, over all of the billions & billions of human vehicles that have EVER & WILL EVER exist- there is ONLY a set amount of keys, made. An amount that may seem infinite… but truly that number is not. It is finite… as in- limited supply. Just like the FINITE amount of water on this planet, so is the amount of souls available to inhabit these vehicles. One key can and will open MANY vehicles over the span of millions of years of vehicle production. Period.
… so, to entertain the idea that a life is gone & destroyed, never to BECOME, after death- whatever the cause, is a ridiculous, & archaic, childish notion, that is illogical & mathematically, improbable.
Before the dawn of Monotheistic religions, civilizations like that of Ancient Egypt believed in Reincarnation, so much so that they built their entire Pantheon of Gods & their belief system around this very idea. The whole judging/weighing of the heart against a feather thing- yeah, that’s the same principle behind the Buddhist enlightenment & Ascension belief.
“Spirit” cannot be destroyed. At worst, it can be thrown back down the rungs and have to start over from the bottom. If your soul is heavy with judgment and malice and jealousy against others, you will eventually come back after this life, inhabiting another body/vehicle, with some very hard lessons to learn. And this process will keep repeating this way until you have shed all of the bullshit you have consciously chosen across all lifetimes to hold on to. Period.
And since we’re speaking of similarities; this is like the Hindu belief where they believe they might come back as a cow or a cricket (or some other animal).
But wait- what about the one key/ one type of vehicle arrangement?
Aha, yes… see, we as humans have decided to overpopulate and overuse our resources; choosing to destroy rich and beautiful, oxygen producing, carbon eliminating forests, to make way for fields to grow soy beans and graze cattle…
… well, if there aren’t enough keys for this type of vehicle- see if any others might work.
..so, yes, we can come back as a “lower” life form. It’s a bit of funny Karmic Law, I think. We want to eat cows, yet we raise more than we need… the cows too, have souls…
Look, I live on a farm. I have cows, along with every other conceivable farm-type animal there is. I am incredibly close to my animals; I observe their behavior- daily. I can tell you that while yes, as a “this” animal or “that” animal, they exhibit different varying degrees of personality & intelligence, and their own unique behaviors… and I can also say that there are some which have just a bit more.
But, why would we come back as a cow or a cricket?
Because there is obviously some basic skill we have failed to learn, or remember from an earlier incarnation. Does that mean your uncle’s cow, Betsy, might be your great grandfather? Um… sure? Possibly. But I think that’s too simple of an example… it goes further than that.
We have more and more documented cases, every year, of children remembering in vivid detail their previous lives that were fairly recent. That’s NOT supposed to happen. We are out of balance right now, which is why millions of people are feeling/hearing the call to “wake-up.”
We are not supposed to remember our past lives. We do however; retain the lessons from (them) deep down in our subconciousness, so that we can continue to grow in Spirit. But, with the rapid growth we are currently in, there is little time to reflect and prepare for our next life’s lessons.
Think of it as starting school at an early age before you’re actually scheduled to start, and then, skipping grades- not because you’re super smart, but because there isn’t room for you in your grade level, and you've got to go to school- every single day for the next 15 years, without ever having a Spring/Summer/ or Winter Break- EVER.
That’s what we are doing to ourselves, as a species, to our SOULS. Those who choose to NOT wake-up are en route to fail their classes.
No breathing time, no respite, equals no absorption.
This I KNOW is TRUTH.
And I’ve realized as I’ve come to what I thought was the end of my musing, that I needed to come back to the “Soul enters at birth” comment…
To sum it up, the easiest (& shortest) explanation I can offer is this; Numerology & Astrology, two practices/fields of study that have been around, hand in hand, for centuries, right along with the oldest of religions/religious practices… have their foundations based off of/starting with THE actual MOMENT (Day, Time & Location) YOU WERE BORN. In other words… According to these ancient and well-followed practices, LIFE BEGINS the MOMENT you are BORN… NOT A MINUTE before, or at conception, etc. Until the exact moment we exit the womb & enter the world, we are still in the “in between” of worlds. We are neither living nor dead, because regardless of physical form, we are an eternal being. If the car is damaged and undriveable, or never makes it off of the production line, that key will still be there… waiting until the next vehicle is available. It’s really that simple.
That is why so many religions, prior to the Monotheistic ones, did not fear death, in the same kind of “Heaven vs. Hell” way that religions like Christianity, do. Before we lost touch with our spirituality as a species, death was truly the BEGINNING. We would die, and just like a wheel, we would start a new journey.
And there’s something beautiful & highly logical in that.
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