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Well first first off, we must first answer, WHO was Cassandra?
So I'll leave a link or two below for you to do your own reading on her if you want to know more, but here is a brief history of a Trojan Priestess named Cassandra...
Time for some GREEK GOD BULLSHIT...
Did you ever hear about the Trojan War?
(I'll leave links for you to read more on it if you want, below)
Well, it all started because someone didn't get invited to a wedding. And, just like Maleficient, Eris, the Goddess of Spite, decided to f*ck some shit up... She crashed the party, bringing with her a golden apple that had the words, "For the Fairest" carved into it. Stories vary, but I imagine she discreetly let it roll across the table, making sure it stopped in the middle where Hera, Athena, and Aphrodite all sat.
Of course all three of them reached for it, a fight ensued, and Zeus was called upon to decide who the apple should go to.
He took half a second to ponder the rage he'd suffer from the two "not as fair" goddesses and said, "Nope! Ima get some other sucker to decide this shit! Not gonna get me with some bullshit." So he popped down to this mountainside farm where this guy named Paris was tending his foster-father's sheep.
A little backstory on Paris...
When he was born, somebody predicted (probably his older sister, but we'll get to that in a bit) he'd cause the downfall of their great kingdom... What kingdom? Troy, of course! He was like second born prince or something to King Priam and Queen Hecuba, of Troy. So yeah, they believed this prophecy as one does, and they took the proper precautions which was to abandon the newborn on a hill so he'd die and be devoured by wild animals... but that didn't happen. Instead, a mama bear was like, "Oh my gosh, a baby!" and she took him and fed him and loved him & probably called him George, while she kept him safe until finding a human who could take care of him. Which ended up being the herdsman who became Paris' foster dad (only dad, as far as Paris new) and now... you're caught up.
So Zeus with the apple and the three goddesses show up unannounced as Paris is big chillin under the shade of an Olive tree, and Zeus commands Paris to rise and help the gods with a matter of great importance. Well, Paris is just a young dumb shepherd that doesn't know a whole lot about anything and just wants a simple life because that's all he's ever known. He doesn't know he's a god-damned prince (Lol-literally)!
So he's like, "Sure, I'll do it!" (idiot)
And then the three goddesses go on to offer to Paris gifts if he were to choose them.
Hera, Zeus' scorned and unappreciated wife, the Queen of the Gods & Protector of Women (although she kinda sucks at that job, for real), offers Paris power and riches. Athena, Zeus' daughter, the (highly over-rated) Goddess of Wisdom & War, offers Paris victories in all his battles & intelligence beyond any other mortal. And then that crafty-bitch Aphrodite, the Goddess of Love & Beauty, born from the blood & jizz of Kronos that fell into the sea when Zeus killed him, who some might even say is the MOST BEAUTIFUL creature in ALL of creation... she could see Paris was but a simple man... so she smiled sweetly and offered him a wife to love, who would love him, whose beauty could only ever be eclipsed by that of her own (Aphrodite).
Well... who do you think he chose? Uh... yeah, Aphro-freaking-dite, of course. And that just pissed Hera and Athena right off who I'm sure left immediately to plot their revenge on the poor shepherd as Zeus left & sighed with relief.
Fast Forward & Paris did eventually find out he was a prince of Troy & he was welcomed back with opened arms, prohecy be damned. And he did also eventually get his promised wife... A beautiful woman named Helen who fell just as madly in love at first sight with him as he did, her. Only thing was, there was a tiny detail Aphrodite conveniently forgot to mention... Helen was already married to the King of Sparta, a big jealous warrior guy named, Menelaus.
And when it was discovered that Helen had run away with this Trojan Prince, Menelaus declared war on Troy.
ENTER Cassandra... (Paris' sister, older sister-probably)
So this girl, was given the "honor" of becoming one of the priestesses who tended the temple and temple fires for the God Apollo, who happened to be the god the city of Troy patronized/worshipped. She was young and beautiful, a princess, a priestess, a virgin, and she had a remarkable gift... She could tell the future in crystal clear detail.
But, just like with Medusa's sad tale of being pursued by a lustful god and then being punished after (although Cassandra's story not ending in such a violent fate), Cassandra too, was aggressively lusted after, by her OWN GOD she was meant to serve... that dickhead, Apollo. She rejected him each time as nicely and respectfully as a priestess could until finally, he got so pissed off he offered her an ultimatum; sleep with me, or else...
Well, she didn't. So he cursed her in a way that would end her people and destroy the very city she'd lived in her whole life.
She would retain her gift to prophesize he told her, but forever more, no one would ever believe her, ever again.
No one ever listened. After Apollo cursed her, everyone took her for crazy. They heard her and viewed her as just rambling static noise and all she could do was watch & cry as she witnessed these events repeat in real time, EXACTLY as she'd already seen in her visions & had articulated as much, to deaf ears.
So... what is CASSANDRAISM? And is it a real word? I have no idea if it is. I'm sure I could Google it but I won't for two reasons...
#1 I've been using this term for over 20 years not knowing if anyone had ever used it/coined it before, because I didn't care. It worked for me. Plus, 20 years ago I wasn't exactly googling a whole lot...
#2 If the term does exist... I just really, really, REALLY do NOT feel like falling down THAT particular rabbit hole---RN.
So, why do I use the term? Because I have ALWAYS felt like Cassandra; cursed to see & speak the future, to warn of the danger of bad decisions, just for no one to believe me & then instead, ask me for help in FIXING what essentially were avoidable situations to begin with.
For me, Cassandraism is a curse, in the same realm as Past Life Vows, Contracts, Curses & Covenants.
Well, how do you break this curse? Hell if I know.
But really, I think I might. At least I can offer a tip or two...
Somewhere in between my first concussion and my second, I did a pretty exhaustive ritual that was (by my design) meant to break me from several curses, vows, contracts, etc., that I was still holding onto from previous lives. I incorporated the "Descent of Inanna" into this ritual and it was INTENSE.
*If you're not familiar with this ritual, look it up, or read pages 149-158 of "The Goddess Path" by Patricia Monaghan... or, wait until next month when I post a full breakdown of the most incredible step I've ever taken in any journey.
Within the context of the Descent of Inanna, I had seven personal, long-held items that represented seven "things" I was stripping away from not just this life, but all past & future ones as well. One item, specific to Cassandraism was a ring. As I walked my circle I held this ring in my hands and said, "This ring represents the curse of Cassandraism against my soul. The ring represents the ability to see the future & advise accordingly, but to also not be believed at the same time- my advice to forever go un-heeded." And as I finished these words, I spit on the ring and discarded it by throwing it over my shoulder... never to see it again.
It is your BELIEF that makes your power real; the convictions you have in the intentions you set. That is where TRUE MAGIC & Power come from. And it is THAT that breaks curses, vows, contracts, etc.
So... DID IT WORK?
Well, among other things in my life I discarded that night, including relationships & covenants- bonds from previous lives keeping me tied to shitty people in THIS life... I'd say a resounding, YES, it DID work. You can't be disbelieved by people you do not advise anymore, right?
*A word of caution, and this goes for all Spellwork of ANY KIND: You can visualize what you ultimately want, but it is NOT YOU who decides the HOW of how you get there. Remember that as you cast.
All my love to you dear Reader, may you find peace and live an uncursed existence.
Some basic Links to get you started...
Descent of Inanna
1/5/2022 0 Comments
During every incarnation we live through, we accumulate *good* Karma points and *bad* Karma points.
*Note: in Numerology, as far as I know, no one really refers to "Karma Points" because (I think) they don't want to infer that there is some Grand Point Keeper and system. But, since I am no Numerologist, I have no qualms about using the analogy.
So... The "good" Karma Points are best described as Passing Grades in school; you learned and showed competency in your subject so you pass and move on to either build that skill further or onto the next subject.
The "bad" Karma Points however, are... you guessed it, Failing Grades. This means that in your previous incarnations you did not "Pass" this "test".
Think of it this way- this whole series I've been trying to put each aspect of your numerology reading into the perspective of a Road Map, right? Well, Karmic Debt is the equivalent of a Driver's Test. Only thing is is that the test subject matter can stay the same for multiple incarnations OR it can change as needed. Like having to take your Driver's test each time you'd have to renew your Driver's License. Which, btw, would suck. And yes, having Karmic Debt can suck. Especially when you consider that some people you know right now might not even have it; this lifetime. Which is great for them and doesn't affect you. Unless you too, have none, which in that case, if after you review your core numbers you find you don't have Karmic Debt... congratulations! This lesson is NOT for you!
I DO suggest you revisit the lesson from everything we've done previous that was the hardest for you to work through and give it a second look. Or, just review all the lessons up to this point and do some additional meditation/introspection.
If however, you DO have Karmic Debt, that's OKAY. And knowing is half the battle. The easy half, but, half none-the-less.
So, how do you know if you have Karmic Debt?
Look at you Core Numbers (Life Path, Expression, Heart's Desire/Soul's Urge, Personality, and Birth Day). If there is, in the last step before breaking down your calculations to a SINGLE DIGIT, the number 13, 14, 16, or 19, then you my love, have a Karmic Debt to pay and/or a lesson/skill to learn or to master... something that you might've been struggling with (even unknowingly) for quite some time.
OR, on a lighter note, maybe it's something you HAVEN'T yet attempted to learn/master... like moving on to highschool and taking a subject you haven't yet tried out.
Now, here is where I get excited about something that as far as I can see (via google search) there isn't a lot of hype/importance placed on...
I get this excited because MY OWN Karmic Debt number (13) has #1 always been one of my 3 favorite numbers (7 and 10 being my other two, because I was born 10-7), and #2 because it explains LITERALLY EVERYTHING.
If you've read my blog posts from when I first started my website, where I talked about all the shit I was doing and how many people I was taking care of/helping, and how I was successfully "doing it all", more and more until it all fell apart... then what happened, and how it happened... well, it ALL MAKES SENSE.
I'm a Libra (in case you didn't know) and my pendulum has always erratically swung from one extreme to the other. I had to work ridiculously hard to get my shit together and under control. When I did, I had to work just as hard to keep it together.
Then, the car accident and 1st concussion. Then, less than two years later, my ram gave me a second concussion. I hated (and still kinda do) the effects this brain damage had on me, my family, my life, and most importantly... my spirit & sense of self.
But I NEVER ONCE believed there wasn't a greater reason behind my pain & suffering.
I finally listened, and I slowed down. Mostly because I had to; my depression and physical pain was/is crippling. My pendulum was swinging out of control once again like when I was a young teenager and I could control NOTHING.
I couldn't even make sense of anything anymore. I found myself giving into the pain and despair I'd managed to keep away for nearly 40 years, and became lethargic to the point of slovenliness. I went from doing it all/doing too much, to not caring a single bit and doing nothing at all. Then I didn't even know where to begin when I "woke up" and realized I wouldn't just die because I wanted to, so living it was, and I had to do something.
I tell this (shortened) story because I want to include a few clips from the description of the Karmic Debt #13 from the worldnumerology website that I feel, explains it all (for my situation).
Excerpt from worldnumerolgy.com on Karmic Debt #13:
*Very often, people with a 13 Karmic Debt don’t concentrate their energies in a specific direction or on a single task, but scatter their attention over many projects, none of which amount to much.
*Some with the 13 Karmic Debt fall to laziness and negativity. But efforts are not futile, and success is well within reach - one simply must work hard and persevere to reach the goal.
*Keep your environment neat and under control, and never procrastinate.
I've always been told to FOCUS. And shit, just LOOK at this website. Obviously, I've NEVER focused on just ONE THING. I started a company (in name only) called "Jill of all Trades" back in the early 2000s. I grew up loving Whitney Houston's version of "I'm Every Woman", it bacame my inner theme song... Like, hello? OF COURSE this is my Karmic Debt Number??
And OF COURSE, when I felt I was at the top of my game (so I thought) it would all fall apart in such a spectacularly, fiery, way.
And of course, this lesson- the last one I intended to include for the Numerology part of this course (originally, but I decided I'll go to the end, instead- like 5 more lessons, I think), would take me SO LONG TO FINISH & put out???
And the funny thing is... I read this before and knew my Karmic Debt Number, years ago, before I ever decided to start putiing this course together. But it has taken me this long to REALLY hear what's being said to me, by me, over my many lifetimes.
Even now as I write this, my desk and calendar and house are cluttered with projects, etc. that I've been sorting through--- trying to figure out what's important/ what I should keep... Like, I'M STILL DOING TOO MUCH!?! I've shaved down my list of things I want to do in all aspects of my life, to what-I-feel is a more manageable task list... but, realistically... it's STILL TOO MUCH.
And I don't know how to change this other than to just focus on one thing at a time as time and attention allow. That is the best I've learned (so far) to do, I still have a huge list that includes blogging, podcasting, writing, YouTubing, farming, exercising, etc., but I've focused in on how to prioritize and schedule accordingly, so I'm not overwhelmed. And I've been working on allowing myself to see longer term goals. For example, I have a product I've wanted to launch since 2018, I think (maybe 2019?), but since I'm a one-woman-show, I've had some setbacks. But, if I just do smaller tasks and focus on a goal a year or two down the road, then I might ACTUALLY be able to do it... Unlike what I've done numerous times each year since deciding I wanted to do the thing in the 1st place, which was me frantically trying to accomplish product making, marketing, filming, editing, patenting, etc. all in a few months' time... failing... and then giving up... Rinse, Repeat.
So what makes me think I can help you with YOUR Karmic Debt, if I'm still struggling with mine?
I CAN'T. That's a YOU problem.
But, I can give you what might be a tool for you to use, based off of what I've been learning.
But I must say... That I truly feel that until YOU reach your GRAND BREAKING POINT--- you might not be able to FULLY receive the information needed to "pass your test" & ultimately rid yourself of your Karmic Debt.
Let's hope I'm wrong.
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