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I've tried a few times over the last YEAR to update, blog, get back to blogging/teaching, etc... and I have failed miserably, each time. There was a time when I knew myself. And it's not that I'm sitting here NOT knowing who I am; instead, I'm just not liking this new, broken version of me. Like, at all. Does this mean I can't teach you how to find yourself? No. Of course I still can. Just don't expect it to be a pleasant journey along the way. The more truth you are exposed to, the less recognizable your life becomes. I feel at this point I want to write my masterpiece and call it, "How to give a shit when you don't, by hoping one day you actually will." I'll let you know how that pans out, okay? Lol? Anyway... I just thought that I'd say "hey!" and "I'm still alive (whatever that means?)" and also... I was reading through my notes the other day for the PRMseries and I swear, I don't even know who the hell wrote it? I mean, I KNOW I DID, but unfortunately... and just fyi, I'm bawling like a fucking baby as I type this right now... I've just lost so much of myself over the last decade, and the majority of it went real quickly the whole year of 2019.... So. I WANT to finish this series, at least the Numerology portion which by my calculations has at least 3 MAIN lessons left before we can move on, but... I don't know that I have it in me anymore. Some days, I can barely get up to feed/water my farm animals. My body is trying to kill me from the inside out. My endometriosis has spread up passed my diaphram up around my heart & lungs and into my arm muscle/tissue. And some days, I swear it's already in my brain. This physical pain, combined with a mental and spiritual break and a second concussion last year plus so much other bullshit has left me feeling helpless and unmotivated. But hey... I have been on Twitter, even if I've been nowhere else for a while, I've posted some YouTube videos, I've updated my merch, and I've never left Pinterest, although I'm hardly ever on FB or Instagram, and I started reviewing books again... So I haven't competely given up, I guess? Anyway... this was really just to say hey and hope everyone is doing alright/as best as they can. Love you.
8/2/2019 0 Comments
Slightly annoyed, maybe? No, that's the wrong kind of energy; sorry.
Instead, let me say that I wrote this post on the 17th of July, and I am only JUST NOW getting the PDF finished and this lesson up.
But, let me NOT waste anymore time. Yours or mine...
Here's what I'd originally typed out.
O.P. typed July 17th, 2019
Alrighty. I'm back. It's been a minute, I know... sorry. Like I've said in the last few posts, I've been going through some shit and it's been a bit rough. I'm strong and I am awesome, but being that way- every day- takes it's toll.
I was physically forced to listen to my body and soul and I ended up just sitting with the emotions, etc. and everything else that comes from burnout/depression/disappointment/ & being overwhelmed.
It's important for me to say that, because I'm not trying to be this fake ass bitch that pretends to be happy & on top of the world all the time. I HAVE been doing good at keeping those feelings at bay for many months, but the past month & a half have knocked me on my ass.
Every experience has a message... this one was to just sit & be patient and RELAX; something I have an EXTREMELY HARD TIME DOING. And, to be honest, if I'd listened earlier I would've heard that message clearer, but... I'm extremely stubborn. So, it took me that long to go through this lesson. It's like that sometimes, right? Some things take longer to learn than others.
Well, so here we are, FINALLY... LESSON #6, your Hidden Passion Number.
So what is your Hidden Passion Number (HPN)?
For me, I like to describe it as the meat closest to your bones, or, more like your bone marrow. This number doesn't get as much attention as your 5 core numbers (Life Path, Expression/Destiny, Soul Urge/Heart's Desire, Personality, or Birth Date Day), but for me, I think that's an unfortunate oversight. Your HPN is your "dark side", your inner self. This number reflects your trigger points... the qualities that you possess that'll make certain things in life light a fire under your ass, so-to-speak.
In regards to your Personal Road Map, knowing your HPN would be beneficial because you'd be able to look at where you're going and be able to see what possible stops you should avoid or at least be prepared for... like avoiding a certain gas station with notoriously long lines or expensive fuel rates because you know those will just piss you off. But, it's also not about what to avoid, it's also much like a combo between the Expression/Destiny Number & your Soul Urge/Heart's Desire Number, in that it's about what you're good at doing, but also LOVE doing, naturally. The HPN is to me, a truly important clarifier.
HPN is described as a hidden talent that you have; something that you're extremely good at to the point that this expertise will drive you in your life.
Now, I'm no Numerologist; so far be it for me to suggest that "their" definition isn't correct. I just personally feel, after reading MY OWN HPN, that the common description isn't apt enough.
Well, you can see for yourself as we do the lesson...
In the attached PDF, there are 3 links mentioned. For the sake of time, I will just list the links here.
Everything else is (hopefully) explained well enough in the lesson/pdf, itself.
But, as always... if you have any questions, please do not hesitate to comment here on this blog post, or contact me, here.
If you'd like to sign-up for updates on this course, please visit the front page of my site.
Here are the following links you'll need...
Link #1 to worldnumerology.com (Hidden Passion Numbers)
Link#2 to freetarot.com (Hidden Passion Numbers)
Link #3 to worldnumerology.com (Single Digit Numbers)
You can download the PDF for today's lesson, below.
Hi guys... just a quick note to say I've been down and out and working on myself for a bit.
I'll be back to posting lessons later this week.
But, no bullshit... I've been using the same worksheets I've made for the "Getting to Know Thyself, Better" course, and... DAMN. I had said when I started this series that I've done all of this already, but that now I was making it into a course/lesson plan to help others... I ain't trying to brag, but these sheets have actually helped me??? Like, I'm kinda shocked. To help me get back to myself, I thought I'd attempt to use my own material in this (more) structured way... Honestly? If I had to give the course a review so far, I'd say that yeah, there are some parts I'd adjust where we have to copy info down... And I've also found that when I copy the info from the sites, it HELPS to use "I AM" type of rewordings for ALL of the numbers. So, if you haven't gotten started yet, keep that in mind, and if you have started already, see if changing some of that wording to I AM statements helps to clarify the message?
Anyway. Even a God needs to rest, and so that's what I've done. Be back soon...
We will be covering (in Numerology) your Hidden Passion Number, and (in Shadow Work) we will be mapping out a rewiring of our brains... EXCITING!!
Love you all!
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